Tuesday, August 28, 2012

used to it...

you think you would get used to it...use to waking up feeling like you have the flu again and again...or feeling good or even great and then pushing the pendulum a bit too far and crashing like slipping on a rock at the top of the mountain - only one little slip and you can fall to the bottom.  That's the thing i don't think you can explain to someone - you can learn to cope you can focus on the positive you can try and pretend you feel okay - but you just or at least i don't get used to it.  I just can't seem to wrap my head around this some days - or i still get scared that perhaps that something is even more wrong...maybe i have cancer - maybe i have an ulcer - maybe i have and the beat goes on...

1 comment:

  1. Hey, I haven't gotten used to it after 10 yrs. I was about to write this same post. Like how can I be so terribly sick and not have some death disease? I feel so badly!


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