so, this is what the morning looks like, well hello - its been awhile. yesterday and today i have woken up early - okay so depends upon your standard of early - but its 9am and I have already wasted some time on the computer, made myself breakfast, made coffee and threw in a load of laundry. Seriously - is the sky falling? Perhaps it was the blue moon? But the last two mornings i have woken up - and despite being dizzy at 6:30am when I took Sophie out, and needed to sit on the bench while she decided to smell every blade of grass - around 8am when I officially got out of bed I felt somewhat like a not barely alive person. For those of you in this esteemed club - you will understand that almost jarring feeling when you have a reprieve from the constellation of symptoms that are as selfish as a 3 year old in their insistence of being front and center at all times.
I am not going to write much more - because I can tell it is becoming fatiguing and so baby steps today for a "normal" day...things i would like to do - finish a quarter a cup of coffee - put that laundry away - go to the park - read my book - go look for tile with my mom...get lunch...go to the pool - ahhh maybe its magical thinking or perhaps if i do all of it but just for the tiniest of increments I can have it all:)