They fed Sophie - tried to take her out but she moved even closer to my back if that was even possible - as if to say not on my watch am I leaving - so after an hour or so I lying completely still in bed with my headsets on the cliff didn't feel as steep. Jami made some pasta with meat sauce for me and asparagus and I again ate it robotically and then got back into bed. I feel a bit more human now - but getting well is sure a lot of work -
Will lay low for a bit - i really wanted to get out into the real world tonight - just a quick trip up the block to the outdoor mall - just wander among people - and forget about all of this. Days like today after being so positive i sure do miss my old self - okay - pity party over - it always could be worse - i know i am getting better -and getting stronger - baby steps baby steps -well its a almost 9pm and i have begun to feel like a somewhat normal person - that is the good news things can always change - just always hoping for the better.
|Why its all worth it - Thanks Kate xoxo|